Sak Pase!
So, first midterms are over (since June 5th actually) and I've been too lazy to do anything since then. So lazy that I haven't even started studying for one of my classes yet and I'm at least 3 days behind on the other two. Yep, I'm THAT behind. Before you say anything...I know, I know, I'm a BAD medical student and I should know better than to let these lectures pile up like that. I'm a bad influence and not a good role model. But to be honest, I'm having a moment. I'm without motivation, I'm tired (mentally) and I just have no stamina to be studying 8-10 hours a day right now. I am not depressed, I'm just DRAINED of physical, social and mental energy. Behind on lectures, laundry is piling up, I haven't actually cooked in weeks, and I've been sleeping and sleeping nonstop. Okay now stop thinking that....I'm not pregnant either 👀
I have experienced this before and like I said, I'm just tired. My mind is racing too much so I needed the time off, I've had it off and now its back to business. My mind does that lol, it's stubborn and it needs breaks. Until it gets a break, i'll just be sitting in front of my laptop, wasting my time watching lectures without actually learning anything. Can we say #SelfCare or nah? #TreatYoself #LifesTooshort
Let's talk about midterms. I did PRETTY well on Neuro and Path II for Exams 1A. Pharm, well....that needed a LOT of work. Through sketchy pharm, tutoring slides and Anki Decks I managed to bring my grade up significantly on Exam 1B. *Pats self on back* I really hope I can catch up this weekend so I can get back to going to classes by Monday. Also, Intro to Clinical medicine (ICM 4) has started so now I'm back to dressing doctor, physical exams and focused patients interviews, oh my! There's no more time to lollygag, I gotta pretend doctor!
The Dean's list ceremony of academic excellence is next Friday, June 21st so I'll see if my beloved friends (AUC and back home) can take some pics of me to share with you all. Community Action Day is next Saturday! CAD is a semesterly event that AUC puts on where students sign up to go volunteer in the St. Maarten community. Whatever interests you really, there are road clean ups, working with kids, planting trees, helping serve ice cream. It's a beautiful thing. You get a free t-shirt and breakfast too!
Finally, thank you to every one who's been following this blog. I've received many emails from people with questions and comments and believe it or not, each and every time I would get nervous because I always want to make sure I'm helping you or answering your questions to your liking. I know how anxious I was when I made the decision to come to AUC and how great it felt knowing that there were people out there I could reach out to for answers.
TTYL!
Friday, June 14, 2019
Sunday, May 26, 2019
AUC Match Day List
Sak Pase!
Short post! I just wanted to post a link to AUC's 2019 Residency Placements. AUC reported a 90 percent residency attainment rate this year and had 349 residency placements. If you want to check out where students got matched check it out ----> Here . I check this list every year because I want to see what residency programs are open to international medical graduates so I can start prepping my list. It's never too early.
Exams are in a week and I think I'm playing with fire because I'm sooooo behind in like every class y'all and I find it hard to study because problems keep coming at me left and right. Because I'm stressing, I keep getting my migraines and they're worst than they've ever been. I feel like I'm being tested. Pray for me.
TTYL!
Short post! I just wanted to post a link to AUC's 2019 Residency Placements. AUC reported a 90 percent residency attainment rate this year and had 349 residency placements. If you want to check out where students got matched check it out ----> Here . I check this list every year because I want to see what residency programs are open to international medical graduates so I can start prepping my list. It's never too early.
Exams are in a week and I think I'm playing with fire because I'm sooooo behind in like every class y'all and I find it hard to study because problems keep coming at me left and right. Because I'm stressing, I keep getting my migraines and they're worst than they've ever been. I feel like I'm being tested. Pray for me.
TTYL!
Monday, May 6, 2019
I Wish I Wish
Sak Pase!
To begin this post, my good friend's family was in a horrible accident and I mean HORRIBLE. Their car got hit by a drunk driver. If you're able to help, please take the time to donate to their gofundme. They are in A LOT of debt and they need as much help as they can get. If you're not able to donate, please share the link on your social media pages and to your friends and family. Thank you in advance. Here is the link---> gf.me/u/snf7a9
Y'all I'M A 4TH SEMESTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The plan was for me to post right after exams but I was so excited to be done with third semester that I didn't go anywhere near my laptop. I had PTSD. Classes start tomorrow but my brain is still on vacation mode until further notice. I'm not ready for more of this torture so I'm just going to stay in denial and convince myself that I have one more week to vacay.
This past semester came for my life and it came in full force but I DID IT Y'ALL, I made the dean's list again and honored two courses. Let me brag a little, I gotta learn to pat myself on the back. Buttttt YET AGAIN, just like in Phys I, I came so close to honoring Phys II....like 1 percent away but I didn't 😑 Beggars can't be choosers so I have no regrets.
I am grateful for this semester, I learned a lot and God showed up and showed out. I don't know what I would do or where I would be without prayer. I didn't think doing well this semester was going to happen but it did. I need to believe in myself a little more because this self-doubt thing is getting a little old. It's getting A LOT old. I'm tired of the anxiety and the panic attacks I go through each semester because my brain wants to overthink and convince itself that I do not belong here. Every morning, I must remind myself "Bettyna you've made this far which means you have the ability to go even further." EVERY MORNING. That's my pep talk to me. That's how I'm able to get up and study every day. Well, almost every day because some mornings, the pep talk doesn't work so I either remain in bed, cry, pray, or watch youtube videos. I have issues but I embrace them. I'm working on them everyday. I'm sharing this because I don't want anyone reading this to think that this all comes easy for me because that would be so far from the truth. I have to deal with personal bullshit, family bullshit, financial bullshit while I med skooool but that's part of life. I have to remind myself that others have it worst (or is it worse?) than I do. I have to remind myself that this isn't just for me. This is for the people who came before me who didn't have the choice to do all this. Those who came before me who couldn't dare DREAM. I have the freedom to not only dream but to live out those dreams. These reminders are what gets me up. Sometimes they work, sometimes they don't. When they don't, I just let it be and I take a day off. WAAAAAAAA? A med student taking the day OFF? Yep! This past semester, there was a point in time where I took a whole week off from studying. That meant more work for me later but when you can't....you just CAN'T! It's okay to take a day off. Cuz what am I? Superwoman? I wish.
Without further ado, introducing my new classes for this semester: ICM IV, PATH II, PHARMACOLOGY, and NEUROSCIENCE. I heard Pharm is worse than med micro and y'all know how much I suffered in med micro. So I guess Pharm and I are going to be on an uphill battle. I know myself and myself doesn't do quite well with memorization, I do better with concepts. Med micro and Pharm are both rote memorization so you see how that's an issue for me. Yeesh, wish me luck.
Just a little fun fact..... My goal at AUC is not to make dean's list or honor a class every semester. That goal was only set for my second semester because I had something I wanted to prove to MYSELF. After I met my goal that second semester, my goal then changed. In other words, my goal now is to NOT FAIL A CLASS no matter what hell I must go through. So please don't EXPECT me to make the list every semester. If I do, then great. If I don't...did I pass my classes with 70 percent or above that semester? Yes? then I am satisfied. Dean's list is just the icing on the cake y'all....it's important that you remember that. Shoutout to the people who made it to the next semester. For those who have to repeat a class, shoutout to you too. You'll get 'em next time. You're doing something that a lot of people wouldn't dare do. You're doing something that others find almost impossible. Look at you dawg!! LOOK AT YOUU! Also a big shoutout to the ones at AUC who have always been there to help a girl out. I mean they're always there! Y'all know who you are!
I wish, I wish with all my heart to excel this semester in a land called med school. *
TTYL!
*I hope y'all caught the "Dragon Tales" reference 😉
To begin this post, my good friend's family was in a horrible accident and I mean HORRIBLE. Their car got hit by a drunk driver. If you're able to help, please take the time to donate to their gofundme. They are in A LOT of debt and they need as much help as they can get. If you're not able to donate, please share the link on your social media pages and to your friends and family. Thank you in advance. Here is the link---> gf.me/u/snf7a9
Y'all I'M A 4TH SEMESTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The plan was for me to post right after exams but I was so excited to be done with third semester that I didn't go anywhere near my laptop. I had PTSD. Classes start tomorrow but my brain is still on vacation mode until further notice. I'm not ready for more of this torture so I'm just going to stay in denial and convince myself that I have one more week to vacay.
This past semester came for my life and it came in full force but I DID IT Y'ALL, I made the dean's list again and honored two courses. Let me brag a little, I gotta learn to pat myself on the back. Buttttt YET AGAIN, just like in Phys I, I came so close to honoring Phys II....like 1 percent away but I didn't 😑 Beggars can't be choosers so I have no regrets.
I am grateful for this semester, I learned a lot and God showed up and showed out. I don't know what I would do or where I would be without prayer. I didn't think doing well this semester was going to happen but it did. I need to believe in myself a little more because this self-doubt thing is getting a little old. It's getting A LOT old. I'm tired of the anxiety and the panic attacks I go through each semester because my brain wants to overthink and convince itself that I do not belong here. Every morning, I must remind myself "Bettyna you've made this far which means you have the ability to go even further." EVERY MORNING. That's my pep talk to me. That's how I'm able to get up and study every day. Well, almost every day because some mornings, the pep talk doesn't work so I either remain in bed, cry, pray, or watch youtube videos. I have issues but I embrace them. I'm working on them everyday. I'm sharing this because I don't want anyone reading this to think that this all comes easy for me because that would be so far from the truth. I have to deal with personal bullshit, family bullshit, financial bullshit while I med skooool but that's part of life. I have to remind myself that others have it worst (or is it worse?) than I do. I have to remind myself that this isn't just for me. This is for the people who came before me who didn't have the choice to do all this. Those who came before me who couldn't dare DREAM. I have the freedom to not only dream but to live out those dreams. These reminders are what gets me up. Sometimes they work, sometimes they don't. When they don't, I just let it be and I take a day off. WAAAAAAAA? A med student taking the day OFF? Yep! This past semester, there was a point in time where I took a whole week off from studying. That meant more work for me later but when you can't....you just CAN'T! It's okay to take a day off. Cuz what am I? Superwoman? I wish.
Without further ado, introducing my new classes for this semester: ICM IV, PATH II, PHARMACOLOGY, and NEUROSCIENCE. I heard Pharm is worse than med micro and y'all know how much I suffered in med micro. So I guess Pharm and I are going to be on an uphill battle. I know myself and myself doesn't do quite well with memorization, I do better with concepts. Med micro and Pharm are both rote memorization so you see how that's an issue for me. Yeesh, wish me luck.
Just a little fun fact..... My goal at AUC is not to make dean's list or honor a class every semester. That goal was only set for my second semester because I had something I wanted to prove to MYSELF. After I met my goal that second semester, my goal then changed. In other words, my goal now is to NOT FAIL A CLASS no matter what hell I must go through. So please don't EXPECT me to make the list every semester. If I do, then great. If I don't...did I pass my classes with 70 percent or above that semester? Yes? then I am satisfied. Dean's list is just the icing on the cake y'all....it's important that you remember that. Shoutout to the people who made it to the next semester. For those who have to repeat a class, shoutout to you too. You'll get 'em next time. You're doing something that a lot of people wouldn't dare do. You're doing something that others find almost impossible. Look at you dawg!! LOOK AT YOUU! Also a big shoutout to the ones at AUC who have always been there to help a girl out. I mean they're always there! Y'all know who you are!
I wish, I wish with all my heart to excel this semester in a land called med school. *
TTYL!
*I hope y'all caught the "Dragon Tales" reference 😉
Saturday, April 13, 2019
4am - Talent Show
Sak Pase!
I should be studying considering that my final exams are in a week and few days but of course I'd rather write a blog post. 😬
The BMSA talent show was last Friday and of course I performed like I've done the past two semesters. As usual, I have it recorded and everything but I've been listening to the video over and over again to make a decision on wether or not I want to post it for y'all to see. I performed the song "4am" by Melanie Fiona and y'allllll I love LOVE the song, especially the end. If you listen to the instrumental without the vocals on youtube you'll see what I mean, the instrumentals at the end of the song just hits different.
Anyway, I rehearsed my song before the talent show with the school's audio system. However, I ended doing the actual performance with the instrumental being played from the DJ's speakers they hired for the night. Unfortunately, the sound wasn't that great from his speakers. I couldn't hear the music properly plus the bass didn't come out correct from the speakers. There was a point in the beginning of the perfomance where I legit wanted to stop the music and start over haha but I didn't want to look like a diva so I had to deal with it.
I meaaaannnn, I still sounded great 😌 lol but the whole time during the performance it felt like I was battling with the music. I had to slow down, then catch up, then slow down, then catch up with the music, especially towards the end, which was supposed to be my FAVORITE part. Anyway, I decided to post it on here since I've posted my last two performances from the last two semesters so I'd feel weird if I didn't do it this time, good or bad right? Either way, the video and some pics are at the end of the post, enjoy! If you want to hear the song from Ms. Melanie Fiona herself just youtube it. It's a great song!
So like I said in the beginning of the post, final exams are right around the corner and I'M OVER IT. Really, I want it over. I'm tired, I'm annoyed, I'm homesick, and I feel like this semester has been like the lonnngest semester yet. IT NEVER ENDS. I just want to be in Florida chilling out, maxing, relaxing all cool.
Back to studying, I hope to bring good news about finals!
TTYL!
I should be studying considering that my final exams are in a week and few days but of course I'd rather write a blog post. 😬
The BMSA talent show was last Friday and of course I performed like I've done the past two semesters. As usual, I have it recorded and everything but I've been listening to the video over and over again to make a decision on wether or not I want to post it for y'all to see. I performed the song "4am" by Melanie Fiona and y'allllll I love LOVE the song, especially the end. If you listen to the instrumental without the vocals on youtube you'll see what I mean, the instrumentals at the end of the song just hits different.
Anyway, I rehearsed my song before the talent show with the school's audio system. However, I ended doing the actual performance with the instrumental being played from the DJ's speakers they hired for the night. Unfortunately, the sound wasn't that great from his speakers. I couldn't hear the music properly plus the bass didn't come out correct from the speakers. There was a point in the beginning of the perfomance where I legit wanted to stop the music and start over haha but I didn't want to look like a diva so I had to deal with it.
I meaaaannnn, I still sounded great 😌 lol but the whole time during the performance it felt like I was battling with the music. I had to slow down, then catch up, then slow down, then catch up with the music, especially towards the end, which was supposed to be my FAVORITE part. Anyway, I decided to post it on here since I've posted my last two performances from the last two semesters so I'd feel weird if I didn't do it this time, good or bad right? Either way, the video and some pics are at the end of the post, enjoy! If you want to hear the song from Ms. Melanie Fiona herself just youtube it. It's a great song!
So like I said in the beginning of the post, final exams are right around the corner and I'M OVER IT. Really, I want it over. I'm tired, I'm annoyed, I'm homesick, and I feel like this semester has been like the lonnngest semester yet. IT NEVER ENDS. I just want to be in Florida chilling out, maxing, relaxing all cool.
Back to studying, I hope to bring good news about finals!
TTYL!
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